“But no one who belonged to Christ’s churches in Judea
had ever seen me (Paul the apostle) in person.
They had only heard that the one who had been cruel
to them was now preaching the message that he had
once tried to destroy. And because of me,
they praised God.”
Galatians 1:22-24
Dear Heavenly Father, we praise you. We praise you for revealing yourself to us, for putting your Spirit in us and for giving us new hearts. You’ve replaced our hearts of stone and given us hearts of flesh, all for the sake of your holy name. Lord, forgive me for the times I’ve let my heart get stony again. Please continually remind us to live in a way that reveals the new hearts of love you’ve given us so we might encourage, build up, and comfort our brothers and sisters, that they might praise your name, and so the world can see our hearts reflecting your love that they might turn, repent, believe in you, and praise your name. Help us live lives worthy of your calling, to remember our purpose and stay focused on you so that through us you might bring peace to a broken and hurting world, and praise to your name. In your name and for your glory, Lord Jesus, amen.
Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of satan, to torment me.Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me.But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” (2 Corinthians 12:7b-10) ~Paul the apostle
There are days, weeks, lifetimes that I feel overwhelmed by my weaknesses. My sins. Regrets.
And I think how in the world could I ever expect God to use someone like me?
I have nothing. I am wholly inadequate. I live with daily constraints of fatigue and pain. I am constantly thinking and saying and doing things I don’t want to. Things that are contrary to the nature of a loving and forgiving and gracious God. I look at who I am and I’m disappointed. How could God not be?
If I were Him I’d run in the other direction in search of someone better.
But here’s the thing: I’m not God – praise the Lord.
And here’s the other thing – I may be inadequate, I may be sinful, but I love my Jesus.
It’s those very weaknesses that had me running to Him in the first place, and keep me running back because I know how much I need Him.
Spending time with my gracious Lord brings into focus even more how great He is and it is humbling. I compare myself to Him and I see how short I come up in the godliness department. My weaknesses and sins are more evident when I’m in His presence.
And I see again just how very much I need my Father.
When I need Him I call on Him to do in and through me what I never could. I leave room for Him to do the miraculous, because I need a miracle, every single day.
There are those who would have Christians believe God doesn’t want any of His children to be sick. I would refer them to Paul. And there are those who believe their sickness must mean they are being punished by God. I would again refer them to Paul, and Job, and the many others who found themselves weak in some way, yet we clearly see God’s hand was on them.
Yes, God heals. Yes, God still does miracles. When it suits His purposes.
But don’t limit God. God uses all kinds of people in all kinds of circumstances for all kinds of things.
Our weaknesses, whatever they may be, don’t disqualify us from being used by God. In fact they can be the road leading right to it.
We are all weak in some way, most of us in many ways.
The world tells us Be strong! Be powerful. In doing that we refuse the power of God in our lives, and we remain in our weakness.
But acknowledging our weaknesses, taking them to the throne room of God and putting our life in His hands out of sheer desperation, knowing we have nothing good in and of ourselves, is the very thing that will make us useful. He’s then able to fill us with His strength and do great things through us, not because of who we are, but in spite of it.
And all the glory is His.
The prayers prayed out of desperation tend to be stripped of all pretense. The mask comes off, the formality is laid aside, and we get real with God. That kind of realness leads to an authentic, personal relationship with our Heavenly Father. Our Abba. And that unleashes His power in us.
It’s not the strength of our bodies, or the intelligence of our minds, or the skill of our hands.
It’s the willingness of our hearts.
For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to Him. 2 Chronicles 16:9
By the demonstrations of His love, God has shown us that it’s more than a feeling. It’s more than an emotion or romance or sexual attraction or affection or flowers. It’s more than friendship or being able to get along when things are good. It’s more than a commitment until…
It’s doing what’s good and right and noble, in a spirit of humility no matter what.
He showed us what love is on the hill of Calvary when Christ died for us; He shows us what love is when we’re having our very worst days and yet He doesn’t give up on us; and He’ll show us what love is when we meet Him face to face when all is done and His promise to remake us is fulfilled.
That night God opened a portal between heaven and earth, and a pathway paved with the grace of God was let down in the form of a tiny, unassuming, vulnerable baby.
While the world slept, a miracle happened.
While the world groaned with sin, an offering was given.
He was the gift, and still is, and forever will be.
May you be filled with the joy and wonder of the Christ Child this Christmas and always.
Side nugget – I like to look up the exact meanings of words when I write, and when the first sentence came to my mind, portal was the first word I thought of. I thought that didn’t sound right, and maybe I’d want to use another word for portal, so I looked it up and here is its meaning: “a door, gate, or entrance, especially one of imposing appearance, as to a palace.”
Oh my friends, portal is the exact right word. God knew. The doorway opens to a Palace, the Palace, the Kingdom of God, the royal dwelling place of the King of kings, the One Who came down to free us from sin’s hold, and then to one day greet those who receive Him at the Portal and welcome us into His home forever.
“The Israelites did evil in the eyes of the Lord, and for seven years He gave them into the hands of the Midianites. Midian so impoverished the Israelites that they cried out to the Lord for help.
The angel of the Lord came and sat down under the oak in Ophrah that belonged to Joash the Abiezrite, where his son Gideon was threshing wheat in a winepress to keep it from the Midianites. When the angel of the Lord appeared to Gideon, he said, “The Lord is with you, mighty warrior.” Judges 6:1,6
Mighty Warrior.
If that were the name of a superhero in an epic comic book story brought to life on the big screen you’d expect he’d be a 6 foot 6, muscle-bound behemoth of a man who shook the earth when he walked. He’d carry himself with confidence, a stern face and eyes set while everyone was sure to stay out of his way.
But this was Gideon.
Ancient winepress discovered in Israel
When Gideon heard someone say mighty warrior he may very well have flinched and looked around to see who the person was talking to as he hid from the Midianites in a winepress threshing wheat.
But the Lord was speaking to Gideon, calling him to deliver the Israelites from the hand of the Midianites.
But Gideon didn’t jump up from the winepress, grab a sword, don his armor and shout “Yes, this is my chance! I am ready!”
Instead he questioned, “But, Lord, how can I save Israel? My clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my family.” Judges 6:15
Gideon was a young man who came from a small, poor, weakened, and seemingly insignificant family. He was a nobody. At least that’s how he saw it.
Nugget: Gideon’s clan – the Abiezrites – together with five other clans all form the tribe of Manasseh. And Manasseh, together with the tribe of Ephraim form the tribe of Joseph, one of the twelve tribes of Israel. The tribe of Manasseh descends from Manasseh who was one of the sons of Joseph, the boy who was sold into slavery by his brothers (to guess who? The Midianites), and through the continual hand of God, rose to eventually become 2nd in command over Egypt, exceeded only by Pharaoh himself.
Do you know that God loves to call the insignificant, the weak, the poor, the underdog, the nobody, fill that person with His Spirit, and lead him or her to do great and mighty things?
Gideon might have seen himself as young, weak and ill-equipped, but God saw him differently. God saw him not just as he was, but as He would make him to be – a mighty warrior.
And just as God had a great plan for his ancestor Joseph even while he sat in a pit, served Pharaoh’s official, and languished in prison, He had a great plan for Gideon and all the people of Israel.
Throughout the process of overcoming the Midianites, Gideon is unsure and shaky in his next steps, and continually asks God for signs that He is with him, and God continually reassures Gideon that He is.
As the plan begins to succeed, Gideon begins to fulfill the name given to him by the angel of the Lord. He transforms from the young man hiding in the winepress, full of questions and requests for fleeces, into a mighty warrior who is confident in God’s presence, provision, and desire to do a mighty work through him.
Gideon chose to believe in and obey God, and God gave victory to the Israelites through Gideon and his whittled-down army of 300 men to 135,000 Midianite and neighboring peoples, 120,000 of whom were killed.
Gideon’s confidence and boldness had grown, and he himself killed two kings of Midian, while the men of Ephraim killed two leaders of the Midianites, one of them, ironically, at a winepress.
I can relate to Gideon. Can you?
When God told me twelve years ago to be strong and courageous just before my own battle began with my health, I felt anything but strong and courageous. At the time I tried to understand it as best I could. But just like Gideon, I’ve grown in my understanding of God along the way. I know God sees us not only as we are, but as He is making us to be. God was calling me to be something He was going to fulfill in the journey. I have been becoming strong and courageous in Him, for He is with me wherever I go.
What does God call you? What has He called you to do? Do you feel too weak and insignificant? Like a nobody? Well, you’re in good company. David was only a boy; Jonah was filled with fear; Joseph was thrown into a pit; and Mary was just a simple, unassuming young girl who would give birth to the Savior of the world.
In a world where everyone wants to be famous, “…the eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to show Himself strong on behalf of those whose heart is loyal to Him” (2 Chron. 16:9) regardless of our fame, standing, finances, intelligence, or anything else the world says is important.
God loves to do His work through a humble spirit, the ones in whom the world takes no notice. They have no agenda, and know they have nothing sufficient in themselves. They must rely wholly on God – where true and lasting success always lies, and He always gets the glory.
No matter what you’re going through, God sees you through the eyes of His Risen Son. He may very well be using that struggle in your life to prepare you for something great. Whatever He’s doing, He knows the plans He has for you, and what He is making you to be.
Side nugget – I like to look up the exact meanings of words when I write, and when the first sentence came to my mind, portal was the first word I thought of. I thought that didn’t sound right, and maybe I’d want to use another word for portal, so I looked it up and here is its meaning: “a door, gate, or entrance, especially one of imposing appearance, as to a palace.”
